Sometimes, at least for some of us, we have to "find" God over and over.
I experienced my first “hallelujah” phase when I
was a teen but looking back, I wonder if I was merely caught up in the moment or was it a “real” savior moment but at a level that my young mind could process.
As a young adult I had an experience that made me seriously question everything that I
was brought up to believe religiously. I began
frantically searching for answers – my answers.
This search lasted a good 10 years at best, and it was a stressful search for me not
knowing what my faith was, or how to define myself religiously or spiritually. Eventually, I found a huge comfort in the “knowing” that I'd settled in to and the beliefs I embraced and it was good. That is, until my mother passed away in 2013 and I began questioning it all over again. However, I believe questioning is a good thing, and although I remember my last search was stressful at the time, I can also look back on it as a sort of fun time too. So, I intend to relax and try to embrace this new search for my faith in a good way. Just let it flow.
It’s interesting what He puts before you. He already knows that you’ll interpret it in the way that you need to in order to find the answer that is right for you.
