P.O.L.

When you feel completely resolved that your relationship is over,
and then,
something happens,
and its not over.

But nothing has changed.
The problem has not been resolved.
The finances have not improved.
Nothing has been worked out.
Nothing new.
Except that,
you both have decided
its not over,
and you have this rush of relief
come over you, and,
even though the problem is still there,
you are okay now
because the relationship is too.

That rush, that relief - is that one small piece of evidence, or POL (proof of love)? Is it one way that love shows itself? There will always be problems. There will always be financial difficulties. But when you wake up each day and you're still together - isn't it that consistency that creates a sense of stability that trust manifests from? And that is how love shows its face. It's the "for worse" in " for better or for worse". And one day you look at the life of your relationship and you say, "wow, look at everything we've been through."

Well, evidently, for me, it is not worth posting if I have no photo to share with it.  We'll try a little music instead.



So I've been in sort of a funk lately.  I'm neglecting my photography.  I'm neglecting my house cleaning.  I'm neglecting me.  I'm gaining weight, and I feel like shit.  I know what I want to do, I simply have to put the self-discipline behind it.  So, I am documenting here, now, some steps I plan to take in my effort to get myself where I'd like to be emotionally and physically.  And hopefully, by declaring it here in black and white, it will help me to commit to them.

1. Meditate daily for at least 15 minutes.
2. Run/walk for a minimum of 30 minutes, 5 days a week.
3. Declutter the home and re-decorate.
4. Pick a book and read it.
5. Complete at least one major art project every 3 months.

hair envy

I love her hair.  More than that though, I want it! The big messy golden curls - awesomeness.