How to fight less

If we could only remove
expectations and emotions
from the equation,
we would fight less.

Man-UP

You were wrong then, and you're wrong now.
The good news: its just your immaturity, you'll grow out of it.
The bad news: boys mature slowly....

The victim is nothing without his sympathizers.

It's hard for me to sympathize for someone who begs for sympathy (especially a child I wanted to raise to be stronger).

...but then, he cried - all of the time it seemed, and usually without much reason - and so maybe this was destined?

When you are the one treating others with disrespect,
accusing others of being "haters",
telling lies about them, and causing others to cry - then,
it is not really you that is being victimized, rather
it is you that is victimizing...

Exhibit "A": Facebook posts that all scream "poor me"

I think
that there are people who,
in actuality,
wish they were mistreated or abused
just so they can have a valid victim card to play...
But then,
those people are pretty good at making up sad stories anyhow.

Were these crying tantrums manifested from the favoritism displayed for him by so many? Thereby training him to desire and expect this treatment forever?
Maybe..... 
I think so anyhow.
They lasted even through middle school.

Apparently, I can't expect a level of maturity more than your age... I must keep reminding myself of this.

leaf

Many studies have proven that liquid cannabis is an effective treatment for cancer - and if it were me or my child, I would appreciate this being a legal and available treatment option for us.  Liquid cannabis is safer than many over-the-counter medications and certainly safer than prescription medications, chemotherapy, and radiation treatments.  Marihuana is non-addictive and you don't get a "high" off of liquid cannabis.

Read this story about Cash Hyde, a 3 year old, diagnosed with recurring brain tumors.  His parents, after hearing about liquid cannabis, resorted to (illegally) treating their son with it.  The results were just as the many other studies have proven. To read more, click here → Link

lazy = loser

At this point, you gotta put enough thought into your argument to know how to win it - because, if you're not, at this point, I sure as hell am not going to let you know you are right (when you are), and I'm not going to tell you what you could say to win it.

You just gotta get your shit together.

two wrongs don't make a what?

I could say a lot of things. Things that would appear hateful - in actuality they come from that place of my own pains - retaliating the pain. (Don't let anyone see you're pain as they may misinterpret it for weakness, right?)

And then what?

I know that still, I will not receive the response I desire or need to heal my pain. But I also know that, without the retaliation, I will not receive the response I desire and you will walk away without any true knowing of the pain you have caused me.

So, you see a bitch.

writing helps

sort things out

see things as they are

see me as I am and

see you as you are

but now what?

I don't want to be forgiving anymore...

it makes me feel gullible and foolish.

fuck it.

fuck you.

homeschooling Wolfie

Today, as I homeschooled, Wolf and I were discussing his studies and he told me of a tweak in his assignment he felt that he would benefit from...

As I listened to him, my thoughts went a bit to the wayside,
"he's getting so big,
growing up so fast...
will he go through a rebellious stage?
Will he become too difficult to homeschool one day?
He's so respectful and obedient
and tenderhearted...
I can't imagine losing what we have now.
His voice is so deep..."

I appreciated and respected his input, and told him so. I valued that he had put thought into how he could get more from his studies. 

After discussing it, we agreed to the adjustment and I let him know that eventually he would have more and more of the responsibility for his studies. He let me know he wasn't ready for that just yet. 

I'm so proud of him.