To be or not to be

I'm generally a private person. I never put anything too  terribly personal (i.e., an argument or disappointment with a friend or family member) out there (i.e., like on Facebook). On some level, I believe I even (at times) resent that I keep things to myself so much. Everyday I would log on to my Facebook account, and everyday I would read post after post from all of my "friends" sounding off about their own ups and downs. I didn't. I wanted to though... 

I think about my past, and I think about all the crap I wished I would have documented for myself, and maybe even for my conveniently forgetful family. But, maybe its better that I didn't, huh. Easier to leave some of that past behind, right.

And then, 

do you ever find yourself wishing that you could install those little spy cameras all over the house, so you can do a playback anytime you wanted? 

Yeah. 

Me too.

Consequently, this. This blog is my personal sounding board. The good, the bad, and the ugly. And while it's not so private being web-based and all - I haven't pushed it to be too public.  I haven't given the site address to anyone, and when I follow other blogs, I do it anonymously because I don't want anyone to link back to mine. I want to sound off about my life, but I really don't want anyone I know personally to read about it and become upset. It's mine. It's all my perception. Personal. It's all my interpretations. Mine. Obviously, everyone else will have their own perceptions and interpretations which would likely oppose everything I've written. Let them have their blog.

Today, I'm feeling brave. I've changed my settings to follow other blogs publicly now because I don't care if someone reads and writes to me anymore. Well, at least not for tonite. For tonite, a baby step towards becoming a more searchable blog.

I don't Facebook much these days. Too depressing. I don't want to read about everyone else's frustrations and misery. I'm too consumed with my own. <wink>

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Highlights of my day: 

I've discovered some a-mazing websites to use with our homeschooling, and I am freakin' excited about them! One of the sites (All In One Homeschooling) includes an entire (free) curriculum for all grades along with links to other useful sites (like XtraMath)! While I don't plan to follow their curriculum (we have our own), it's a wonderful resource!

<sigh> 

I am so happy when I've got my movie on in the background. Yes, I have Eat, Pray, Love on again. If only I could live that movie... <sigh again>

My beautiful daughter