Emotionally exhausted

I'm texting Estella (Candice's mom) regarding Grandma Montez' passing and funeral arrangements, or rather the lack thereof.

I arrive home and Aaron, who is usually sitting outside on the tailgate of his truck listening to music, is now sitting inside the truck (the motor is off). 

Something's weird. 

Why is he inside the truck with the motor off? 

As I approach, he rolls down the window and I notice that there is no music playing either. 

I ask him what he's doing and he stares at me pleadingly. His eyes are so thick with tears that never reach his cheeks because he's struggling so hard to hold them back. His chin is quivering as he chokes out, "I just miss her."

And, I die.

This moment is now embedded in my mind forever! 

I wish I had words that would heal his soul but everything that comes out just seems to exhaust him more. 

This man should be crying over the death of his Mema, not the loss of a girlfriend. 

He should have been able to be comfortable and secure in his relationship - for better or worse - knowing that he could take the time he needed to mourn Mema without worrying that his long-time girlfriend would leave him to date her boss! What the fuck is she thinking?! 

I'm sick 

as I hang my head 
and leave him 
in the truck 
to cry.

Agony.